Take a deep breathe

Cry.
It's all i want to do.
I know i can't have you.
(oke, itu lirik lagu. ini yang benerannya)

After all these trouble, i though that i could find another "him" for me.
I did. A while.
Yeah, just for a while.
Then I know i couldn't have him completely just to make him being a person I can lay on and cry on when i need it.
But now, he has gone.
Not "gone" actually. Maybe just didn't very close like I used to.
But he still around here, on my mind, on my soul, and in my heart.
Hemmmmmmmmmm (take a deep, deeeeeep breathe)

The goodnews is: altough there was a lotta troubles through my life lately(ceilaaah) i can still smile and laugh just like an ordinary girl.
And look, i used to thinked that i can forget him, if there's someone beside me anytime, just like him gitu looooh. But noooow, i can live my life without the memories of him haranging me every day every minute. Not bad, huh?

I know i can't forget about him completely 100% ever. It's hard and it's wouldn't be that simple for me. But all I know, i have to enjoy my life. I cant keep going on "this" over and over again. I just need a time, a long-long-long time. That's all it takes. And I have to find my own happiness, right? My own-soulmate. The right-one for me, that will make me better. I will go on search again. Yiipiii!
Hemmmmmmmmmmmmm (take a deep breathe once again)

In my condition like this, I often feel alone and nobody's love me. But I completely wroooooong. My friends nor my family give me support that makes me feel sooo alive. I don't know what happened to me if you guys are not here, beside me. Thank you for being my best yaaaa. Love ya soooo muccchhhh. Youre the best I ever had muah muah...

Okay, let's go to our main topic.

I accepted whatever God write for my love-story wholeheartedly. And I try to don't have any regrets for what happened on me because I know it would be the best for me. Right?????
And, I don't have to be too busy to make him feel sorry for what he did to me. Cause I know, he will get his karma for sure. Remember, karma does exist ya.
I just wanna live i peace (gaya lu), but hey, I mean it! Hehehehehe.
Alright, from now on I'll be the new me. Let's make a brand-new story ya gak siiiih...

And its worked, lalala. I can feel my progress about "this" on and on. Keep it up ya nia. I know you can do this. Come on, this is life, this is love. You feel crush, you had a comitment, youre in love and you started to feel uncomfortable, there were so much trouble, you broke-up, you're single, and then youre fall in love again and then blablabla. Right? Everyone's did like that. It's a usual thing. And yeaaah, its life. Life that I must fight for it, I must cry and I must feel pain for it. And then Im sure, someday I will get my own paradise, where anyone or anything can't reach it, and take it back from me :)

Beside, I already have a cute-guy for my next victim loooh ahuahuahauahauahu
Hemmmmmmmmmmm(take a last deep, deeeep breathe)
Okey dokey, melanie is waiting for me now at EF. I will post my blog as soon as I can ya!
Byeeeeeeeeeee

PS: Untaian kata darimu
Tak cukup waktu tuk ulangi masa masa indah yg ada
Takkan ku ragukan lagi ku suka kamu
Dan kau merasakan hal yg sama
Namun ku tak bisa melakukan ini semua
Karena kini kau telah berdua

Hapuslah cinta antara kita berdua
Karena kau sudah ada yg punya
Biarlah diriku memendam rasa ini
Jauh di lubuk hatiku

Sebuah kisah indah kita
Berlalu cepat tanpa ku sadari
Takkan ku ragukan lagi
Begitu banyak kisah indah dalam langkah kita
Ku tak bisa melakukan ini semua
Karena kini kau telah berdua

(Soulvibe, biarlah-hapuslah cinta)